Writing with Photoshop - something I wrote for APLANG in the beginning of the year. Reading this makes me feel one of two things: one, wtf was i thinking and two, my teacher mustve been like wtf too.
The continuous clicking defies my patience, silently taunting the white canvas to bloom into chaos. I hear the gears cranking into a soft yet clear motion of text. I smudge and filter the background with the ferocity of shifting keys. I type and type, but abruptly stop to brush in a few colors and patterns. Then I type again, trying to fill my screen of slightly covered craft. Dragging through the hovers of text and lines, I leave a trace of invisible pink remnants.
I click there or shift down to organize. I ctrl-x, ctrl-c, or ctrl-v until the program recognizes the listed order. My mouse glides within words per minute speed but never going beyond limit to increase the chance of a computer freeze. Then I repeat until each pixel is filled with color, crowded to the point of no detail left behind. I eye the blinking cursor. It’s waiting for a change in mind. The electronic time ticks and tocks slowly to remind me for new thoughts. The keyboard shouts to be pressed on. My mouse yearns for a ride to the menu for more ideas.
My cursor continues to disappear and reappear until all the pixels are customized to its perfection. It seems perfect, until I realize my design isn’t aligned to fit my standards or needs. I click a few more hundred times to undo and redo my words. The continuous and furious clicking acts like a normal breath. I clone and stamp to duplicate the portrayal of good quality. I search for new patterns and brushes to import for an altered canvas. The whiteness has bloomed into an illustration of complex words and sentences. My mouse shades from lucid fingerprints for the final product.